Once upon a Dream

What type of Fae are you?

2007-02-16T20:24:35Z

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2007-02-02T06:28:30Z

What do you do when you lose someone, your family member, and it feels like you lost part of yourself?

I miss her so bad, it hurts way too much... I wish today never happen or came.

BLAH

2007-01-19T04:59:49Z

So I don’t know why every time I am down I always manage to spill it on here…. Not like anyone would read this…. I hope not and if you do sorry. You must think I am some depresso 24/7 cause all I do is bitch and say depressing stuff. I am really not like this 24/7. Its just I cant figure out some things and find it helps to let it out and that only happens when i am worried about something or upset about something. Not to mention so lost and totally confused… BLAH!!!! Its so frustrating and all. >.

What to do.....

2007-01-16T19:58:40Z

Wondering… oh dear I know I am at it again… damn mind is just nonstop… kinda sad. Anyway ever left somewhere cause you weren’t happy… didn’t feel like you fit in too well or didn’t know how…. Then after some time you go back thinking things would change and find that its worst then before… like you are totally useless and a total outsider not even knowing where you can start to fit in again… or even if possible? Do i leave again? or what? **is lost at to what to do**

Thinking yet again

2007-01-15T06:41:58Z

So I was thinking yet again but what got me thinking was Nickleback’s If everyone cared song. (one of my all time favorites) But it really did get me to think and as my mind wonder to endless thoughts and beyond I ended back at myself. More so about my artist side and wondering will I ever be one to make a difference in the world. Even if it only one person I make a difference for… to me that would be enough. But the question could I do that or would I be able to. I always have been one to sit back and take everything in and think about it. I have a very open mind. I don’t mind others opinions… I like to hear them but I don’t like when they try to impose that their idea is right no questions ask. Other then, again I like to hear what others have to say. Only thing is I was never one to tell what I thought about ideas or really tell anyone what really goes on in my mind or ideas.
I want that to change a bit. I want to be one who makes a difference in at least one person’s life. Its more to the point I want to change myself and become a better artist and grow as a human being. I want to make an effort. Do something that matters to other, to care. In someway I also think it might help me before more happy and not depress all the time. I need something in life to work for and feel passionate about. (I am not really talking about politics either… world issue would be a better way to word it) Things I see and how I feel about. What I like and don’t like. Stuff I never would share before I want to share and hopefully through my art.
At one time I thought art would be my life and somewhere down the road of life I lost that and since then been so unhappy. I have tried to hide the fact I been so unhappy and depress but lately it’s been harder and harder to hide. There are points I don’t want to move from my bed… weeks at time at that. I had nothing to get up for…. But there was art and forgetting art had made me realize I forgot a part of myself because art is my life… that’s all I know. So hopefully I can throw myself back into it and become me again, happy and some how make someone else happy.

I guess what this is leading to is that I dont want to live a meaningless life... i want to matter, to care and in return be cared for.

Something to wake up to

2006-11-05T22:54:36Z

So lets talk about my day…. Not only did my phone ring this morning once but a few times. Me being asleep didn’t answer them. (After all we are talking about Sunday morning..I am sleeping in) Any who.. I finally listen to some very demanding voice mails from my mom saying she needs to talk to me.
Ok first though…what did I do now? I didn’t think I did anything wrong…at least I couldn’t remember
SOOOOOOoooo….to find out what I called her up…
To put it short my uncle is in the hospital. He doesn’t remember what had happen since he lost some of his memory and is slowly gaining it back. Not to mention his leg is killing him with pain.
He was horse back riding and something happen…the horse slipped or something and was falling and my uncles foot got stuck in the stir up and the horse (which weights I don’t know about 500 pounds landed on his lead and his head hit something.
It could have been worst so I am thankful he is ok. Although they are going to do more test in all since he did hit his head and his brain is swollen. *fingers cross* That is all that is wrong hopefully he will make a full recovery.

what color is your aura?

2006-10-01T08:15:34Z

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What Color Is Your Aura?

Because i am bored

2006-09-19T00:45:44Z

i should be finishing up a project but instead i found myself distracted...

You Are a Good Girl

You are 70% Good and 30% Bad
Generally speaking, you're a very good girl.
(But you don't have us totally fooled!)

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

Boob Twin

2006-09-19T00:06:41Z

Your Celebrity Boob Twin:

Jessica Simpson

Who's Your Celebrity Boob Twin?

Theme Song?

2006-09-18T06:12:44Z

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack,
I've been too long, I'm glad to be back"

Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos.
But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

What's Your Theme Song?

which x-men are you?

2006-09-17T07:51:20Z

You Are Jean Grey

Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death).
Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally!

Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals

Which of the X-Men Are You?

WOOT!!!

2006-09-15T21:28:51Z

I have a LJ now..WOOT. Of course I blame Mar for this one. lol I really should be studying for my two test on monday but instead I find myself playing on here instead..its all good this is so much more fun.